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2004-06-12T09:29:34Z

im hungry and its like 5am

You're Element is Night. You're a loner who is very
creative but never show your work to anyone.
You may smile a little but sadness or
loneliness surround you and other can feel it
when they're near you. You have a dark or
unusual beauty that makes you mysterious and
you probably have a lot of secrets that you've
never told anyone. You're beauty is intriging
and unorthidox but the real thing that makes
you special is your eyes. Something in them
makes them like "Diamonds in the
Rough"

What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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for sam

2004-01-21T07:08:10Z

so.. here i am... waiting around for alli and michelle to call me back, cuz i called them, expecting to go out. now this was 2 weeks ago, gam and i havent left the house
im pretty sure sam was fired from his job, seeing as we havent left the house in 2 weeks cuz we're still waiting for them to call back
seeing as at least one of them was excited to go out
and ive missed my clinicals cuz we're waiting, wating waiting
looks as tho theyve "pulled one"

psh

itpointstoyou @ 2003-12-31T22:29:00

2004-01-01T04:31:33Z

all dressed up... and now where to go.

story of my life.

itpointstoyou @ 2003-12-24T16:09:00

2003-12-24T22:09:39Z

i love my boyfriend

also

i love cake

itpointstoyou @ 2003-12-20T14:42:00

2003-12-20T20:43:24Z

if youre off my friends list its cuz youre a slut and i hate you
and you should probably die.

but not really
but yes. really.

itpointstoyou @ 2003-12-18T01:00:00

2003-12-18T07:00:12Z

sometimes people (guys) do certain things without even thinking about what their gf will feel
think people
THINK
hey, maybe this will bother her, hey maybe she feels uneasy about this

itpointstoyou @ 2003-12-13T15:34:00

2003-12-13T21:34:10Z

I have a UTI
yay
I don't know whats better, a UTI or a Yeast infection.
good thing I'll get to try them out back to back seeing as antibiotics cause yeast infections, yay

ugh

early x-X-x mas

2003-12-04T20:58:54Z

yay Sam got me "Pirates of the Caribbean"
so I gave him his bon jovi shirt and uhhh miles davis? is that it, probably not.. it really doesn't even count

**************
or maybe you didn't think at all and that's why I feel what I feel now
well one of these days youre going to recognize JUST WHO you've thrown away

im so tired, I have to pick Sam up in an hour then more Xmas shopping needs to be done

itpointstoyou @ 2003-11-28T19:22:00

2003-11-29T01:22:48Z

"girls you've got to know, when its time to turn the page. when you're only wet because of the rain"

itpointstoyou @ 2003-11-23T18:36:00

2003-11-24T00:36:40Z

ahhhhhhahahahhahaha
sams throwing fit over bon jovi being on tv and gay people
hahahahh
na na na na na na

SHOUT OUT

2003-11-22T06:58:13Z

A BIG HI-FIVE GOES OUT TO SAM FOR GETTING A NEW JOB (he wouldn't do high-ten)

We went to see "pirates of the Caribbean" tonight. it was a good movie, now I have to own it. we also got free food.. we're so poor, but we managed to got out for the night for just $6.. well it was his money cuz im broke... thanks to my baby for a fun night
oh
and as I said, Sam got a new job, yay for him

itpointstoyou @ 2003-11-15T18:06:00

2003-11-16T00:06:12Z

whos up for taking me on a date?
yeah.. that's what i thought

itpointstoyou @ 2003-10-26T04:01:00

2003-10-26T10:01:37Z

OK FAGTARDS..... NOVEMBER 2ND THERE IS A TRIP PLANNED TO FRIGHT FEST
IF YOU WANT TO GO LET ME KNOW... SO FAR I GUESS ITS SAM, ROSIE, JESSE, MAYBE JESSICA,..... MICHELLE... MAYBE CHAD?
I have room for 3 more in my car
so reply here or im me or e-mail me
I don't care do something.,.. just let me know if you want to go

today = fun
me = tired
bye

itpointstoyou @ 2003-10-22T21:13:00

2003-10-23T02:13:32Z

I guess im walking to school tomorrow.. since I was supposed to spend the night at my nice boyfriends house cuz I need to take My car to school

itpointstoyou @ 2003-10-22T20:48:00

2003-10-23T01:49:00Z

so I talked to my friend mark for like 3 hours.......
im glad ive met him
hes a smart guy and we talked about lesbians..
that cant be a bad thing hah
anyway now I have a friend at school
I used to see him a lot more when I didn't know him tho hah
that's kinda weird

anyway if you ever come back here, thank you

anyway my uterus hurts now

" aint never been hit by a man.. ive been choked and shot at before but I aint never been hit"
hah

itpointstoyou @ 2003-10-22T19:34:00

2003-10-23T00:34:18Z

sorry carrie... sam wouldn't bring me my car

itpointstoyou @ 2003-10-21T05:29:00

2003-10-21T10:28:59Z

chulo totally got hit on 2 times today at petko
these people were looking for a dog to breed their dog with.. I wish he wasn't fixed.. stupid humane society... that's not very HUMANE but they loved chulo
they wondered how someone could have given him up.. that's something I don't understand myself.. he is just too sweet.. hes the best dog ever.. I swear if I moved somewhere that didn't allow dogs I would find another place to live cuz hes like my baby I couldn't live without him and I would never give him up
aww look at him

hes a witch

BUT FIRST HIM AND THIS LITTLE GIRL DOG KEPT SNIFFING EACH OTHER
I TYPED THATin caps and there is no way im doing it over
but that was cute too

yeah this was all about my dog... and what?

yesterday I hung out at pizza shuttle... kinda like old times but not really
those days were so much more care free and people were much cooler...
going there anyway of the week and everyone would be there.. or everyone going to a show then going there after... then it wasn't cool to be "hardcore" anymore
then it was even less cool to be straight edge
but til the day I die I guess I will be uncool
but ill probably still be alive and not have a drug abuse related illness
so in the end
I win
jk
anyway
yeah I still remember those days... crazy days
not necessarily better days.. but fun days
Sarah and Matt matera made those days insanely funny
"go back to Africa"
I met Sam back then too
but he never wanted to hang out cuz we always tried to get him to do stuff with us
I remember the first time a saw shai hulud
then almost dying with Matt matera after that.. fun stuff
anyway.. I can go on and on about those days

who the hell says golly tamale?
this show should die.

anyway I love this picture

it aint no lie

oh hell nah

2003-10-18T06:59:53Z

bitch. why you all up in my stank?

when will you wake up

2003-10-17T07:23:33Z

when comfort is too much to ask for.....

today sucked
my dog is hungry
I didn't drink anything all day til now and I woke up at 930

yeah sweetest day

happy love day everybody

I wanted lord hug n kiss (or something like that)

its weird that I was thinking about that trash strike episode today cuz I was watching the garbage men pick up our trash and I was thinking if my car was parked right there and they hit it that I would go outside and yell at them
then they would get all mad and I would be like, "oh yeah, what are you going to do? cut off our service?" then someone would have to write a letter of apology to them cuz our trash started to pile up
man... im weird

anyway that's also the love day episode

sweetest day is much like valentines day, the most disappointing days in the world
well, I guess that could be any day
but those always seem to be even more so disappointing

is it wrong to say, "if you wont let go, how will I ever move on?"

I need to sleep this all away
**********
tomorrow after I drop Sam off at the haunted house, im taking my dog and im going to sit myself by the lake
then im going to get attacked by cudahy trash

I just want him to be here and give me a hug or something
but sometimes such simple things like that are too much to ask for
you cant always get your way

man PMS sucks
someone should kill my uterus

I guess sometimes I just think about stuff a lot.. like I wish I were just this spectacular girl
instead im just Spictacular.. no im jk
but yeah sometimes I feel like I give all I can and its just taken for granted.. I don't know.. maybe I just ask for too much or expect too much from certain people
but I never thought I did
I don't really ask for anything
I just want something
and sometimes I just fight with myself
and I have these long conversations with myself, in my head
and everything comes out in there and everything is said
but in reality, when I try to talk.. sometimes it just never comes out..
I really do consider these things I feel and or have to say to be of great importance..

I do speak my mind
but with this stuff
it just confuses me to no end

I really do think its the time of the year that's messing with me hardcore right now.
I suppose I will talk to someone about it... but its like when I do try to get something out the other person doesn't respond

I guess I just really want to talk to Sam right now

I never write in here... ill probably just delete it in a minute anyway

SOMEBODY LISTEN TO ME
somebody talk to me....
please

ps this dude really sucks.. i really dont like him..... yeah whatever cuz you are the best in the world and youre not a faggot....
yeah i think we all know who were talking about.. ::beep beep::
well at least gam does
im not trying to start drama either, i just dont like him

itpointstoyou @ 2003-10-12T01:27:00

2003-10-12T06:27:50Z

how do you become and coroner
cuz im so at that school for ever

its weird
like I was thinking today how people are so different... cuz I was read journals other than my fiends list and thinking about different jobs...
like I cant imagine being a lawyer or anything like that, people are just so different and weird, its funny

anyway
im going to die
and that sucks
ive been thinking a lot about that too...
I don't know I guess we all have to but
I want to see what happens to this world in the future

I hope someone fixes America in the future tho cuz the way we are right now, we're just all going to kill each other off and we all probably deserve that
that's the only reason I don't want to have kids
when I see myself having kids I see this perfect world with my kids...
but im reality it wont be like that, not in this world

gay
beeeeeeeeeeeeeep beeeeeeeeeeeeeep beeeeeeeeeeeeeeep beeeeeeeeeeeeeep
::Sirens going off::
I went out with sam yesterday.. I love my car, that is all

itpointstoyou @ 2003-10-10T01:11:00

2003-10-10T06:11:10Z

school is sucking right now, I need to keep my a's so they are like oh shes improved, lets give her money

I want to drive my nice new car

UnderABloodRdSky: go make me some lunch
ViciousSpic: hah no way
UnderABloodRdSky: come on you lazy spic
UnderABloodRdSky: just do it
ViciousSpic: whatever my name is nicki, not nike
UnderABloodRdSky: HAAAAAAAAAAAHHAH get out

they call me dr pee pee

2003-10-09T00:22:13Z

well Sam and I had fun yesterday
the park is fun at night
we took a bunch of pics at the lake, we look dumb
and we took pictures of the things we wrote in the sand
you'd think wed be all lame and write "I love nicki" or I love Sam, like they do on tv
but yeah we wrote 666, faggot, you're gay, things like that. KKK

hopefully tomorrow we are going to take another trip to the lake.. I have to shave my legs so I can wear a skirt.. im so lazy

gay people are the devil, we've got to kill the devil

for waking up at 7am you'd think id be hungry by now..... well its only been 12 hours

I drove my new car.... its a lot nicer than my old car

everyone is busy today, it sucks... so I guess im just going to do homework and wait for my boyfriend to call
so I can go take the car back over there for work tomorrow, hopefully ill get some love instead of not love hah
whatever THAT means
I was going to go look at shoes but I have no one to go with

I want a pita from extreme pita, NOW
they are so good

I wanted to see afi, I wanted to see afi for FREE.. Sam and steve are lucky
my family was going too crazy for me to go

itpointstoyou @ 2003-10-04T17:12:00

2003-10-04T22:12:22Z

meh im just wasting my time...........

good: i got a new car today
Honda civic
bad: its white
but for a white car its really nice
and small and cute
im going to tint the windows anyway
so far i love my new cr, even tho i didnt get to drive it
that is all I guess

itpointstoyou @ 2003-10-03T00:02:00

2003-10-03T05:02:05Z

why can he never get a break....
ugh god, for real every single time he has something figured out
and is excited about something, it goes to hell

I wish I could give him the world
seeing him so hurt, hurts me
he doesn't deserve this
its not fair

my baby deserves everything he dreams of

yeah also fuck people for being inconsiderate bastards, for real
I don't even know them but im pissed at them

never give up on your dreams

:(

itpointstoyou @ 2003-10-02T13:06:00

2003-10-02T18:13:35Z

im stuck in this stupid class til 130.. they are teaching us how to search for stuff online... yeah cuz im an idiot and dont know how to do that

im so tired.. i hate waking up early.. even tho it wasnt that early today... 930.. when i woke up i thought i was at sams house.

i had to stay on one side on my bed cuz my dog slept right on next to me so i couldnt move much
yesterday my mom and i took him to get his nails cut at petco petko whatever its called... before we even got there we had to pull over cuz he had to pee so whatever he peed then we went to the store
we had to wait a bit cuz the chick that does the grooming was in the back. but i whatever he saw a slightly bigger dog and he just crapped all over the floor.. it was funny cuz he wouldnt stop so the girl cleaned it up.. my dog is a wuss..
when she cut his nails he was really good until the last foot.. he bit the girl.. i laughed at her.. it was funny
she cleaned his ears out too.. she should have cleaned out his stank mouth
anyway
we bought him a new sweater.. i would post a pic but i left my camera battery at sams house.. he looks like a little fag

sam hurt his foot the other day.. my poor baby
its all huge and purple but i guess its getting better so thats good
i was so afraid it was much worse
yesterday we went to look at cars.. there are so many nice cars.. i love them
i pretty much want a civic
but a corolla would be fine too
there are a few others too but my mind is blank right now..
but on saturday my dad is going to look at the ones i liked so maybe i'll have a new car by this weekend.. but who knows with him.. it all depends on interest.. but yay im getting a new car.. its better then the one i have now.. even tho it runs really well cuz it was fixed
i took chulo with when we went to miller park to look at car and everyone thought he was my baby cuz i had him in my sweater and i had him covered with my coat, it was funny

i might get to move out soon.. yay $200 a month rent for 2 bedrooms.. but who knows how that will go.. it depends on my aunt and my brother.. but that would be nice by next semester, cuz then ill have a new car, a new job(hopefully)and a new house

i smell like sam.. probably cuz i have his shirt on still.. i forgot to change when i left last night and i never change my clothes in the morning.. i just roll out of bed and wear whatever i have on, to school
so i have sams promise shirt on and no pants.. jk
uh yeah tonights going to be boring
good thing sam is going to come over after practice
and i have ER to look forward too
i suck

my ribs are bruised from being pounded into a sink over and over hahah
woo fun
anyway i better do my work now so i can get out of here in 10 minutes